Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1
withers away @ 10:11 pm
don't let me get used to smth and be so comfortable and happy with it, and suddenly take it all away. it's cruel u know.
withers away @ 1:26 am
秘密 - 蓝又时
你就直接回头吧
她在等着你
不要怕我会哭泣
早就在心底
想想你说过的话
其实我们不虚假
那就好吧
其实你对我不差
别对我食之无味
弃之可惜
虽然你还有感觉
但不是爱情
想想你说过的话
其实我们不虚假
那就好了吧
这些够了呀
我们的爱情是秘密不能成立
就算我爱你也不能够说明
她在你身边逗你开心
我只不过让你歇斯底里
（你）就让我跟着你一起秘密
我们的事情说好不提起
让我们都能够清晰
你和她是不变的定律
withers away @ 11:52 pm
它，有笑有泪。刚开始时大家都爆笑，到最后一直听到静静的抽泣声。它，有血有肉，探讨生与死的交界处，从一边去到另一边的过程。
我不能说它发人深省，因为其实这个故事很简单。简单，从另一个角度看，得到了共鸣和感动。
fix you by coldplay
when you try your best but you don't succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse
and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse
lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you
and high up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but if you never try you'll never know
just what you're worth
lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you
tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
tears stream down your face
and i...
tears stream down on your face
i promise you i will learn from my mistakes
tears stream down your face
and i...
lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you
withers away @ 1:38 am
amplitude ended. there goes my last performance.
yvonne asked me say smth to the choir after we sang, since im one of the old ones in choir alr, and this is my last. u know it actually reminded me of how mr kenneth koh asked me to talk to nj guitar the night before syf. on hindsight, i realized i didnt say anything abt how we sang on stage. nothing. i was talking abt how shchoir always came frm nothing to at least smth when we come to amplitude. for all 3 yrs. so this is what they mean by the process is more impt than the result huh. esp when it comes to smth like this, when there is no competition or contest to gauge our levels.
yes we started all sharp for cui dong cui. yes credo was better when we sang in our small group in mpsh. yes chording wasnt that tight.
but screw it man.
we pulled through it. that's the most impt thing when u're on stage. being able to pull thru it. and for this, im already really thankful and grateful. thx for letting my performance life end nicely.
withers away @ 10:39 pm
在自己的世界一直转，很多圈，很多回。很忙，很累。从这里，冲到那里，再赶回这里。我为了什么？
我想做的，我应不应该做？我想说的，我应不应该说？我想拥有的，我应不应该去尝试？有多少人可以放下心中的害怕，去闯，去问，即使知道会搞得头破血流，还是会去做？看到面前是一道墙，仍然会一头撞过去？这叫愚蠢还是执着？还是两者之间，原本就不存在多少差异。
林夕啊，不愧是林夕。
然后怎样 - 陈奕迅
完成了所谓的理想
放纵了情绪的泛滥
汗都流亁天都微亮
然后怎样
拥有了旅行的空档
却遗失流浪的背囊
沿着轨道一直浏览
然后怎样
假期过完有什么打算
走过一个天堂少一个方向
谁在催我成长
让我失去迷途的胆量
我怕谁失望我为谁而忙
我最初只贪玩为何变负担
为何我的问题
总得等待别人的答案
我的快乐时代唱烂
才领悟代价多高昂
不能满足不敢停站
然后怎样
withers away @ 2:31 am
today's fun! we didnt do much really. i guess when things get to a certain stage, there is no need to do anything anymore. the only thing u need is to hang out. i've not laughed so hard with them for so long alr.
the moon, so big and near, rising slowly and surely, away.
if i dun feel like i've got strength to sweep the floor (yes left to rot for 2wks and counting), unpack, brush my teeth, wash my face, and i just feel like going to bed, maybe i should really just go to bed. bye.
然而到后来我什么都没有，当你离开的时候
withers away @ 1:06 am
totally disorganized post with disorganized thoughts, with inputs from everywhere. forgive the girl who has to steal sleep.
rockfest ended today. ytd and today were madness. everything that could have gone wrong, kinda did go wrong, with us/me either wanting to headbang or dig a hole. but yes the show went on, though not that well but, i guess, just well enough.
做大的，永远只是一心想要保护小的，深怕他走错路、走冤枉路。如果大的措辞不当、语气不佳，还有望小的能包容原谅。
abt the 3 songs on el's blog, i actually can sing the 2nd and 3rd. the 1st i dun really recall, but i actually EMO-ed over it. yes. wth.
冬季到台北来看雨 - 孟庭苇
冬季到台北来看雨
别在异乡哭泣
冬季到台北来看雨
梦是唯一行李
轻轻回来
不吵醒往事
就当我从来不曾远离
如果相逢
把话藏心底
没有人比我更懂你
天还是天喔雨还是雨
我的伞下不再有你
我还是我喔你还是你
只是多了一个冬季
冬季到台北来看雨
别在异乡哭泣
冬季到台北来看雨
也许会遇见你
街道冷清
心事却拥挤
每一个角落都有回忆
如果相逢
也不必逃避
我终将擦肩而去
天还是天喔雨还是雨
这城市我不再熟悉
我还是我喔你还是你
只是多了一个冬季
withers away @ 12:05 am
its probably the last time i'll be on stage as a chorister. the last performance. forever.
AND I DUN EVEN HAVE TIME TO EMO ABT THAT!
*crawls away*
hi friday the 13th.
“不痛時，你要假裝很痛，很痛時你要裝不痛”-取自小寒的部落格
withers away @ 12:04 am
cmb concert went ok. nothing too happening that scared me. in fact i think it was all pretty smooth. or maybe nothing much can really scare me anymore HA.
everytime its only when i come back to my room, sit down, that i even have time to realize that hey im tired. and that the only things i want to do are to save the planet, to hunt, to fish, to take snapshots. but yeah i still have things that i have to do. like HAVE to. so the other peripheral things take a step back. like. housekeeping. because sleep is so much more valuable, even if its just half an hour or 15min.
like. this.
ps. i havent swept my floor for two weeks. doesnt help that im dropping more hair when im more stressed. no i dun think u want to see a picture of my floorXD
withers away @ 1:01 am
today was. bleah. yesterday was. bleah. there's no concept of yesterday or today anymore, because sleep didnt come into the picture. there's no concept of time or period, because school didnt come into the picture, be it lecture, tutorial, practical or fieldtrip. i cant believe i was so calm and prepared to just miss it. but it actually eased me a little, because it gave me some space to squeeze in, albeit barely, the first thing that didnt come into the picture. there's no concept of subsistence or satisfaction, because meals didnt come into the picture. unless u consider a sweet as something?
"why are u still functioning?" boss asked. that, is a v good question.
at certain times, some things are more impt than those that sustain your basic survival.
some things, u may hear, but not understand its meaning. some things, u may not hear, yet u understand it more than ever.
tml's the show! obviously i still have things to do today. pray vvv hard.
withers away @ 7:11 am
eating breakfast before going to sleep. weird yeah, but im hungry!
withers away @ 1:15 am
迷失的时候，动摇的时候，需要抓住一些东西，让自己回归到原来相信的。信仰，是种强烈的力量。
its fun to listen to the story. to laugh. to feel happy for someone. to really wish someone can find happiness. to pray for someone. because u know the journey is spectacular. been there. done that. then, to think back on my own story. and to think that, i want it to continue, but i dun want it to continue. what capacity do i have left? is there any capacity to talk about? i want. but dun have. dun want. no more. wrong.
withers away @ 4:48 am
organizing and performing for the annual cmb concert on 11th march. everyone can come! doors will open at 7.30pm. concert starts at 8pm. free parking opp sheares at ISS from 7.30pm onwards.
and our website is up! the blog design is damn nice. its the type of blog layout that i'll use.
http://www.sheares.nus.edu.sg/cmb/
tons of things to do. which also means that my term is coming to an end. wow. wow.
withers away @ 9:19 pm
i realized, the guys that i find cute/near cute are all the same type. oops. HAHA.
since when did it become so compelling to check my email all the time till its almost scary. i dun even dare to not check it, even if its for half a day. cmi HA.
night has become day. and day... is still day. 睡觉是一种买不起的奢侈。我也懒得理会了。
不管怎样怎样都会受伤 伤了又怎样
and its really weird. i keep singing this song on and off these days. like u know, suddenly u catch yourself singing without knowing it. weird.
fall for you by secondhand serenade
the best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
could it be that we have been this way before
i know you don't think that i am trying
i know you're wearing thin down to the core
but hold your breath
because tonight will be the night
that i will fall for you over again
don't make me change my mind
or i won't live to see another day
i swear it's true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
you're impossible to find
this is not what I intended
i always swore to you i'd never fall apart
you always thought that i was stronger
i may have failed, but i have loved you from the start
ohh, but hold your breath
because tonight will be the night
that i will fall for you over again
don't make me change my mind
or i won't live to see another day
i swear it's true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
you're impossible
so breathe in so deep
breathe me in, i'm yours to keep
and hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
and remember me tonight when you're asleep
withers away @ 6:56 pm
see lah. forget somemore lah.
it is starting. it has started. i knew it. but cant do anything abt it. 眼睁睁看它直直冲着我来，也只能这样。而且知道，一天复一天，都会是这样。
我就说是回光返照。
听着这首歌，感触很多。
这是伊能静写给庾澄庆的歌。（叹）
记得这首歌是从友人那里拿的。当时我坐在他房间床上，他惊呼着原来我也觉得这首歌很有意思。（叹）
我知道我说过，我很庆幸有些事情没有变。但是，尽管你不承认，尽管你不戳破，无可否认的是有些东西已经面目全非了。而对此，当事人想必都很痛心。
春泥 - 庾澄庆
漫天的话语纷乱落在耳际
你我沉默不回应
牵你的手你却哭红了眼睛
路途漫长无止尽
多想提起勇气
好好地呵护你
不让你受委屈
苦也愿意
那些痛的记忆
落在春的泥土里
滋养了大地
开出下一个花季
风中你的泪滴
滴滴落在回忆里
让我们取名叫做珍惜
迷雾散尽一切终于变清晰
爱与痛都成回忆
遗忘过去繁花灿烂在天际
等待已有了结局
我会提起勇气
好好地呵护你
不让你受委屈
苦也愿意
漫天纷飞的话语
落在春的泥土里
滋养了大地
开出下一个花季
风中你的泪滴滴
滴落在回忆里
让我们取名叫做珍惜
让我们懂得学会珍惜
withers away @ 4:02 am
从小小的一个人，看出人生大大的道理。发人深省，而且是让你久久无法言语的那种，你要自己感受才知道。
"Good night, Benjamin." "Good night, Daisy."
ok. time to start on some work.
withers away @ 9:46 pm
everything that can go wrong, will go wrong. and i really mean everything.
like i told bao, is it possible that i can just collapse, and then wake up to find that it's already april? frankly, i hate march. maybe it's a sign u know, since i've seen people collapse within these few days. i mean literally, on the ground.
no, no. i'm not dying. relax. im beyond that already. 置之死地而后生，懂吗？有生才好，没有的话，就祝我好好安息吧XD everything is gonna be okay. that's a fallacy in itself.
painfully familiar.
withers away @ 1:12 am
喜欢读友人的部落格。没记错的话，他是修读华文/文学的，所以写的东西，我未必尽然了解，但写的都很有意思，至少有某种共鸣。以下摘录自他的部落格。（我这辈子都写不出这种东西，即使我从小就喜欢写作。）
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不说是矜持去半生的爱。但不说是维护千万个未知的可能。
说，是一语的道破。是正与反的答案。
究竟是说，还是不说？
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原來韌性的背后都是不安，
熱鬧沸騰下，沉淀著許多孤寂的顆粒，
滾動的愁緒，
周而復始的探尋。
原來每個人都一樣。
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另一篇文章，他引用了莎翁的十四行诗。
Sonnet 30
When to the sessions of sweet silent thought
I summon up remembrance of things past,
I sigh the lack of many a thing I sought,
And with old woes new wail my dear time's waste:
Then can I drown an eye, unused to flow,
For precious friends hid in death's dateless night,
And weep afresh love's long since cancell'd woe,
And moan the expense of many a vanish'd sight:
Then can I grieve at grievances foregone,
And heavily from woe to woe tell o'er
The sad account of fore-bemoanèd moan,
Which I new pay as if not paid before.
But if the while I think on thee, dear friend,
All losses are restored and sorrows end.
当然，他还是活在这世纪的人。所以才会有这东西，而我也去做了。结果：
You are The Lovers
Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.
The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.
Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.
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